Getting ready for a Fresh Start

Well it is under 60 minutes before we ring in the New Year, reflecting on 2005 is kinda weird as it is really my first time to really stand back a take stock of how the year went. It was definately a busy year with Z's play groups and activities. A's school, soccer & obsession with X Box and DH's business trips. Then there was the crazy summer we had with surprise visits from my family, family from overseas, summer camps our trip to the rock and then back to school full time for both kids.

Here I was thinking I would have some time for me but it just isn't working out that way. DH has decided he needs me at his office so I am doing what I can plus the usual. I have been attempting to carve out my own time with scrapping and curves but it has been somewhat of a struggle. I am now able to go on Field Trips with both kids and I have also been volunterring at the school - teaching scrapbooking as part of art class. That has been an adventure LOL.

Now there is the newest development of MIL moving in with us. Not sure yet if it is to be long term and that decision will definately have to be hers. It's great that she can spend more time with my kids and help them and myself with arabic but I am expecting it is also going to add more to my little time as well. I will leave that alone and let it work out for itself.

All in all 2005 was a good year but I think I will work at 2006 being a much better, and more productive year.

To all my scrappin' pals - So glad I got to meet and scrap with many of you and looking forward to getting together with more in the coming year.

Wishing you all health Happiness and prosperity in the coming year!!!

Here's a summary of 2005 Lifted from my Dear Friend Barb!!! Thanks Barb :o)

Major events/happenings:
1. Trip to NFLD to see my family
2. Family from Kuwait for the Summer
3. Break Up of my oldest Brothers Marriage
4. RIS Conference & Concert
5. Sister moves back home so much farther away from me

Regrets:
1. Spending too much time online
2. Procrastinating in my weight loss program yet again
3. Not being as organized as I would like
4. Wishing my sister and her family lived closer
5. Being short tempered a lot more than usual

New things I've done:
1. Started a blog
2. Started working at DH's office - not sure how I feel about that yet LOL
3. Joined Curves and totally loving it
4. Made some wonderful scrapping friends
5. Attended all Field Trips for my kids - I can do that now that both are at school full time.

Passionate about:
1. My Family
2. Scrapbooking
3. Gardening
4. Shopping
5. Sleep LOL

Too much/many:
1. Clutter but have been working on that - Goodwill/Consignment Shops here I come LOL
2. Time spent online
3. Pieces of the kids art and paper from the school - Thinking I am going to put all I REALLY want to keep in a binder and allow them 1 binder per year!
4. Black clothing in my closet
5. popsicles - left over from the summer

Wishes for 2006:
1. A healthier and fitter me
2. Happy kids
3. Healthy family
4. Date nights with DH
5. A Baby? not so sure about that yet LOL
6. Work more on reading arabic and the Qu'ran

An Emotional Time....

Well as you know I spent the Christmas weekend in TO and I got the chance to do a bit of Christmas giving of my own. On the 24th after we finished up at the Conference, while I was waiting for my DH to return I decided to call my oldest brother who happens to be going through a rough time right now - seperated and on the way to divorce from his wife of 17 years.

Anyway he is on his own and definately finding it difficult at this time of year. I decided that we would go and see him as he is in the GTA. I didn't previously tell him I would be in the area as it was unclear if I could make it and I didn't want to upset him. Well, when I called and dropped the bomb that I was coming there was such a heavy silence I am sure you could have knocked him over with a feather. I heard the catch in his voice as he struggled to keep it all together. After I got the directions to his new place I hung up and we prepared to go out for dinner and head to his house. BTW food ended upbeing Indian LOL. So off we go to Brampton. I refused to go to his house empty handed (we only give to the kids now) So I make DH search out a Shoppers where I promptly dropped some $60.00 in Christmas goodies.

When I get to his apartment and unload my stuff I give my dear big brother a huge hug and ask him if he was ok? His answer.... "I am now that you are here" Talk about your heart squeeze!!!! Little did I know that after I had spoken to him he had called my Mother and the floodgates opened. He was so excited and emotional that I would take the time away from the conference to visit him on Christmas Eve. Mom told me that he had said if I had told him I couldn't drive to Brampton he would have drove downtown to see us. Ahhhh DB I do love you and so wish that you weren't going through all this crap!!!

Well I am almost through....

...yet another Christmas, and I am actually surviving it ok. I think it helps that I am not at home this year. We decided to take in an Islamic Conference in TO and to tell you the truth it is just what the Dr. ordered. LOL

Kick that meloncholy in the butt I say. I am not running from my feelings in fact I discuss it quite openly - emotions and all with DH and he is very understanding and supportive. So much to the point that he is willing for me to go home for the Holidays. Funny thing is I don't really want to because there is so much more of me that isn't Christmas as well. Somethimes I just don't understand what I am feeling myself so how do I explain it, or put it into words?

Anyway, I am really enjoying the Conference with the varied topics and the shopping in the Grand Souk, so far I spent more than I intended.. as usual LOL. Right now I am waiting for DH to get back to the hotel so we can drive around TO looking for a place to have dinner LOL me thinks it will be Indian or Malay for dinner. After that I think we will got see my oldest brother for a bit.

To all my dear friends who celebrate Christmas - I wish you all the very best and beauty of the season, I hope you have your dreams fulfilled. I hope you all are blessed with peace, health and happiness in the coming New Year.

I also hope we can get together real soon to Scrap!!!!:o)

Love to you all - I feel so blessed to have met so many wonderful Scrappin friends over the past year!!!

Sorry I have been MIA for posting on my Blogg...

But I kinda get meloncholy this time of year and try really hard to fight it. Despite the fact that I truly believe in Islam and being Muslim there is still a small part of my heart that misses the beauty, hype and sense of family that was Christmas for me.

It seems to be a bit of a struggle each year, some years more than others.

Don't get me wrong, I love being Muslim and wouldn't change it for a minute but sometime don't you just want to have it all? Yeah selfish I know but oh well!!!

So what else is going on with me at the moment???? Trying to keep my sanity! LOL My kids are home for the break so been busy entertaining them. Yesterday we took in Chicken Little - cute movie but could be a little scary for little munchkins! Today I am still debating on baking with them or a craft. Will see how the morning progresses.

NOW I know why.....

some animals eat their young!!!!

LMAO Ok I promise I won't eat them but I was pretty darn close yesterday I can tell you that. My dear kids had a PD day yesterday, ok Monday is bad enough as it is but throw a PD day on top of it and #$&?!#^ !!!! I had to go to Costco, I needed to get food so off we go but before leaving the house I did read the riot act to them! I promised them YES we could look at the toys but NO they couldn't buy anything!! Cripes it is only a month ago that they had a big holiday with gifts, what more do they want? DS wasn't so bad when it came to asking for toys DD was a totally other story - everything she wanted - I mean EVERYTHING!!! And it make it all worse we have another holiday coming up in January!!!

Besides the nagging for the toys they were at each other constantly, picking and annoying, whatever they could think of. Trips like this totally remind me why I never go shopping with my kids. My blood pressure, I am sure went throught the roof and I think I turned into Nasty Mom. I hate Nasty Mom, she is just not a nice person and not fun to be around. I don't want my kids to remember Nasty Mom at all!! OK rant over the kids are in school today and I can be nice again but oh no, wait....they will be home for 2 weeks starting the 16th AKKKKKKKKKKKKKk insantity here I come!!!!

Thinking I gotta get me a big master plan and a lotta $$ to keep them entertained for those 2 weeks... other than the movies and the museums anybody have any ideas???? All help muchly appreiated!!!

Ever Wonder about Doctors???

So I have this stupid infection below the skin on my jaw. I take myself off to the Doc on Tuesday to have it treated, my own Doc is off on that day so I see another at her office. He gives me a prescription and tells me to use cold compresses (I was previously using hot on my own knowledge) Ok so he is supposed to know what is right...right???? Well not so right, nothing was happening, the infection should have shown signs of disappating after 6 doses but that wasn't happening, off to see my own Doc today, she prescribes a totally different drug and tells me to use hot compresses...what the *&()*&%*^%$&^#!!!! So now I am $70.00 out and still have a face from some horror movie!!!! Ok gotta be an upside right? Gotta see the glass half full is my philosophy so I have already taken some of the new meds and already am feeling a difference!!!

I think we need to revamp the medical system to be able reclaim $$ spent on mis-diagnosis!!!